Scenario
1: Person X is smart *Colin has a theory on this but that is definitely a story
I shall NEVER explore here* and like Benjamin pointed out we are greatly
influenced by the people whom we surround ourselves. I am a Christian and in
school there was an argument that would ALWAYS come up when the pastor would
preach about ‘not getting yorked with non-believers’. The reason behind this is
that we were more at risk of backsliding if we had ‘strong’ relationships of
whatever nature with non-believers. Of course everyone would be quick to ask
whether it was impossible to help them see the light and even use the bible fwa. Here’s what I know, I am NOT the
exception to the rule but there are many people out there who are and I know
this because I see it every other day. The rule is birds of the same feathers
flock together. Spending A LOT of time with lazy people eventually rubs off on
us. I tried to get an opportunity to look in on Person X’s life and the keyword
here is TRIED.
Scenario
2: Person Q is amazing, smart, funny, charming, nkebyo. Bottom line is amu smitten
as if. LOL. Ene who, I have this
terrible habit where I read through conversations years later because things
are always crowded by lots of things in that moment *Wow, this shit is shady*
As I was saying, reading through later usually gives me a clearer perspective
about things and helps me decide a way forward. I understand the usual ‘you garra pass certain tests thing’ and of
course many people don’t know they are doing it or will deny, deny, deny paka paka but at what point does it
become a circus?
Scenario
3: Person H says they will do something that clearly helps me much more than it
helps them. It means A LOT to me and I am out of this world because
opportunities like this do NOT chance along every day, Literally. Days later
and I haven’t heard from said person, I decide to follow up because I am an
organized individual and what not. Apologies here and there and appointments
are made *Repeat till fade*
Here’s
what keeps me up at night because my mind cannot rest or refuses to voluntarily
get some rest. Is this how life should be? Just so I am clear, I am NOT trying
to have it easy but spending an entire lifetime *Dramatic, yes but that is how
I feel* proving yourself to people can NOT be healthy. If I am to live a
quality life and I intend to, I doubt I shall be able to achieve it likadat. I am positive that at least one
of the people if not all will point out at a later time that I did not try hard
enough, that I did not seem like I was really interested. At what point does
one know that it is time to stop before they go all Lord Mayor on others?
I
am sure someone is going to say that ‘you will know you have given it your best
when you do’ which will make me feel especially stupid for staying up this late
writing this.
Thinking
is stupid; everything is flying fwa not like cool Quidditch things.