Dear
Nev,
I
am surprised at you; acting like what you did would not have any consequences.
You have made me rethink pretty much every decision I have ever made in life
and yet you don't seem to understand the magnitude of your actions.
I
want to say that it was just a stupid fight but I fear that I don't believe it
was only that.
How
I wish I could move on in a heart beat instead of spending sleepless nights
trying to remember to forget you.
Time stood still that day and hasn't moved since, so believe me when I say that
I do not mean to be silent.
I
honestly don't know what to say or do; I want to be selfish and I want to be
with you so I can't have it both ways.
The thing about you is that at the end of the day, it is about you.
Even after everything you put me through, I find myself wanting to apologize
because I can feel you placing the blame on me.
Even knowing that, I still believe in us.
I
need time to think about us; because at times I feel like you are suffocating
me and I need to breathe.
Can
we give that a try?
P.S:
I hope we can fix us because I miss us.
Sincerely,
Pearl