'Dear Lord, please
make a way', she whispered and looked at herself one last time in the bathroom
mirror.
It felt like
yesterday when she had a room full of mirrors, but she would not let those
memories out. The pain might unhinge her.
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A new doll house was the latest addition on baby Nicky's list of wants yet she
could barely afford her milk. This was great though, it meant that Nicky
believed the ‘we are only visiting Aunt Leah for a while until she feels
better’ story.
‘It’s only a matter
of time’, she couldn’t help thinking…
‘Then what?’
‘Let’s get through
today. Then we can worry about the rest’
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‘I want Mummy’
It’s like Aiden had
a way of knowing when she was about to leave. Then the crying began.
Almost like he was
scared that she wouldn’t come back.
It broke her heart every
time that happened.
What happened to the
dreams of building an empire and laying the world at her children’s feet?
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She had been having
ideas of late.
Committing a crime
in order to save your angels can not in itself be a crime.
This is what it had
come to.
It was way past the
time to reshuffle that deck because the cards were not working in her favor.
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The landlord was getting more impatient by the day.
She had gone for yet another job interview, the 6th this month but had not
yet heard anything.
As she held baby Nicky close to her chest humming her to sleep, all she could
do was pray.
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Footnotes:
So many times I get
caught up in my world and what I want and how much I want it NOW that I end up
being mad at God for ‘doing him’ (doing
what He wants and not what I want). Even the smallest of problems is huge to
the beholder but some problems are simply BIG.
A single mother with
2 children got abandoned by her man (whom she was living with but was not
married to), lost her job because she would not have sex with her boss and
someone else was willing to, had to sell her car and leave her home because she
couldn’t afford it anymore. Left with no choice, she has to live with someone
else at their mercy always worried that one wrong move might be the end of the
roof for her and her babies. Children being as creative as they are, they want
everything and anything and one can only imagine what it is like to constantly tell
your children ‘not today hunny’ when
they ask for something.
I don’t know about
her family but it doesn’t look like she has any support from them.
Amidst all that, her
faith in God has never been stronger. Just the other day, I was involved in a bajaj accident and I was proper mad at
God but even with all this in her life, she is NOT shaken.
This was definitely
a reflection moment in my life and hopefully I will learn to be more grateful
for my life and life in general.
Side bar: This font
(Century) is awkward in a nice way!!